Lisa's List of Grievances

I've been having issues. I'm sure anyone who knows me knows this already. My ulcer didn't come from nowhere...

So I had a suggestion from the person who is very quickly becoming the best friend I've ever had and probably will ever have, that I should write down my feelings in letter-form; getting it out in the open and off my chest. Rant and rave and all those good things. And I'm going to take that idea and run with it.

But in the spirit of wanting to improve my life rather than hinder it, I wanted to write my first post as a positive one, one of gratitude instead of anger. Cuz all you need is love, and all that jazz.

Dear Emmalee,

I don't know what I'd do without your friendship. I mean I lived the last 13 years thinking I had a best friend (who's going to get a letter of a lifetime here soon...), thinking I knew how friends treated a friend: greedy, selfish, rude. Fun to laugh with, but you know, not always there. Well now I know the meaning of a true friend because even though I've probably put you in a weird position more than once with my... emotions... you've stuck with me, even when you yourself are going through shit times. I'm always scared I'm not going to be good enough to deserve that, like that you'll finally reach your limit and say "OK, she's not worth the whining..." but so far, you've treated me better than anyone I've ever known, listened and given advise, but never pushed and never told me to STFU even when I probably should. AND we're brain twins. I swear it's true. It's odd how we had totally different backgrounds and yet found... friendmates? Not soulmates cuz neither of us believe in that. but you know what I mean. Maybe. Haha. In any case... I really do hope I can move to CA and be closer to you. That's not the only reason, but that'd be a huge fucking bonus. There's a huge amount more I could say. But I think you already know it. :-) Thank you. That's all. Just.... thank you.

Love, Lisa